Desire is a constellation of creativity receptivity and trust.
There is so much written on chasing your desires, as if desires and goals have become all mixed up.
There is also much talk of ‘being able to receive’ often in the same conversations as talk of the feminine, and the divine feminine. Women are relearning and meeting their own embodiment for the first time.
Often these conversations are couched in the same energy that we have been operating in which is to say a very masculine direct way in which we believe we are required or to ‘go out and chase’ and hunt down the things in life we want to experience. This is not the way to cultivate the feminine and heal our exhaustion from over doing.
To be blunt a lot of this discussion is just a dressing up of Masculine principals in a pretty spiritual dress. It is not helping us to connect any closer with the innate wisdom we have as women because of our physicality and it’s energetic workings.
(Please know that when I talk about masculine and feminine I’m not talking about men and women. Transpose the words yin and yang if that helps to create understanding.)
Let me ask you……
If your animal body were able to give you all the feedback she needed if she were able to purr in satisfaction or roar in pain and anguish or share her hearts desires in the safe nest the two of you create in the still moments of the day what would she say?
How would you relate to her?
Would you push her to chase down and hunt her dreams or would you let her cultivate her magnetism ?
Desire is like the pull of the moon. The shoreline doesn’t have to ‘do’ anything to have the ocean come rushing at her.
Neither do you.
What if we could truly feel our desires and not just the absence of them and the pain that can cause us, but the spaces within us that they could inhabit and in that sensation create the receptivity to embrace them and TRUST the timing of their arrival.
What. If. That.
What if as women we were able to connect with our innate receptive nature and trust the divine pull of our desires to steer our course across the skyline of our lives?
How much more energy would we have access to each day to take care of our needs and the needs of our families and businesses?
How much less struggle would be present, the self doubt, self loathing and guilt.
Lets talk about the guilt for a minute here.
A dear friend shared with me that in A course in Miracles guilt is referred to as an interruption (I haven’t quite got there yet its slow going!)
An interruption to you and the conversation that you and your soul, your animal body and your very necessary clever human mind are in.
This affects every possible way that we as women show up in the world. It informs us of our not enough-ness of our occasionally too-much-ness. It tells us we shouldn’t ask for so much or hunger for a life that our bodies are telling us is possible.
It encourages us to dampen down those feelings any way we can with food, with alcohol with technology with drugs. And before you know it that clear sonic path way between us and our desires is littered with static and disruption and we distrust the transmission we are hearing.
Our light is dimmed, the twinkling constellation of our lives feels lost in space.
It interrupts our creativity and the permission this needs to take form in our lives.
Let the guilt go.
For all the women over eating, under eating, over working, distrusting the presence of love in your life, be gentle with yourself, the path back to yourself can be a challenging one. It is a not a journey of addition which we are familiar with but of subtraction, which is frightening when we have bought into the existence of not enough and lack and denial.
Let me be clear here we are not talking about subtracting elements of you but of the layers you have worn in error hoping to improve or please or diminish your brightness. This subtraction is a revelation. Quite literally a revealing.
Take your time with your souls rebirth there is no rush.
Remember the co-ordinates to that constellation.
Hear the pull of your desires hidden in the longing and hunger.
Feel the receptivity present in your body.
Trust the unfolding of your heart in your life.
You are woman. Creatress. Huntress.
There is Magic and Desire in you enough to births stars.